Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Well the business is ready to go. I just need to get the tools together to actually work but I am officially in business in the state of Georgia. I need to get a client and a price structure and once I get going I can get start spening some money to get us off the ground.

I think I royally screwed up with Legion. I accidently sent the whole group an email saying I am sick of them. When in truth I am just sick of the childish way they act when they get together. It pisses me off, they can be so childish. It doesnt help that I am in a terrible mood and I bet that is why I was so vocal about my anger. It is probably hormones I just want to punch a freakin wall. Nothing seems to make me happy at the moment not my dogs or my husband or the shows I watch on Tuesdays. I am screaming inside. I bet it is a mixture of hormones (my first real menses in 4 or 5 years) and I am getting off my anti-depressants. Ugh I hate it when I am like this. But he tis my life. I hope I manage to get off these drugs and dont need to stay on them. I want to be normal again, but then again I was doing really well on the Lexapro except that my moods were so mellow I was barely even excited when hubbs came home. I hope I start to have emotions again even if PMS does affect me more.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Ugh I am frustrated as all hell right now. I just want to work. I miss my old job. I liked seeing people everyday. I miss it I am done with my "vacation" but unfortunately I will be like this awhile longer.

Here is my rant:
Ugh I am soooo very frustrated. I am looking for work although I joke about it I tend to look for work everyday. If I am not looking I am trying to come up with new avenues. I am highly skilled and I have experience. I am even willing to take less than half I am accustomed to as I know I am no longer in San diego even though I know in San Diego I was grossly underpaid for my skillset. I am not asking much I am asking for more than I make on unemployment. So far I have not found ANYTHING in the field I am licsensed in. I did get one jaw drop when I laughed at how much I could have gotten at a job (it wasnt an interview) because it was less than my unemployment. Today some "manager" at a computer store who needed techs told me it was a longshot since I dont have certifications. Certifications in my mind are for people who dont have experience. In truth I hav some very poignant thoughts about people who have certs but I have no desire to offend anyone at this point. Techs look at my resume and say no certs and Finance people look at my resume and say she is a tech. Freakin A I know more about both than most people AND I am willing to pay my dues to a extent. grrrrrr I am just frustrated I know no one out here and have no clue how they hire since nothing I have done warrants an interview. Well except from the company that wanted me to sign a contract and fax them my SS card without speaking to me or answering my questions. Then when I get someone to answer them HE HASNT EVEN SEEN MY RESUME!!!!!!
*sob* I want to work I am good at what I do. Sh.it webby has never met me and she is a days drive away and she will hire me. Why cant these morons give me a chance. I feel like I am right back where I was 2 years ago when I got denied a good job because they thought I may not be able to handle a large monitor. AHHHH!!!!!
ok sorry /rantoff