Tuesday, October 05, 2004

I know every few days I have an excuse for not posting but this one is legit
Sept 28 - We found out we are off to Georgia and we have to be there before the end of the month. So I scrtambled and started planning move stuff
Thursday - nothing as far as the move changed but hubbs timeline for getting home changed greatly I realized I had to basically do everything myself and almost had a break down. I even made it to coffee where many of my friends were surprised I didnt break down. Even Lynn who has been with her hubbs for quite awhile in the navy said she would have had trouble with all that was hitting me head on. As I was leaving coffee Amanda called and wanted me to take her and baby to ER. I got to her apartment and the baby was turning purple but breathing. At one point I did think she stopped breathing. Of course as soon as we got to the ER the baby was fine. So they sent us home and scheduled an appointment for first thing in the morning. At 2:30 AM I called in sick to work and then called in and talked to a person at 5:30. by 11 on Friday we were back at the hospital. Amanda got some reassuring words and she is now much more secure in her momminess. So that in and of itself made the whole exhausting ordeal worth it.
After all that I went to AAA got my DMV stuff and the maps for our trip to Georgia. I also got my headlight replaced and I am sure I did something more. After one more check on Amanda I went home. Of course couldnt sleep so I packed some.
Saturday I packed everything.
Sunday my friend Christine came down with her husband and we loaded up their truck and went off to throw everything into storage.
Today is Monday. Thankfully I have calmed down but I feel like shit and I am still mad at the husband. I feel like I am breaking my back getting shit done I am totally stressed out and he wanted to help but so I gave him a very important job, procure hotel, line up places to look at when we get there and continue relationships I have already started with realtors. Did he do a damn thing? No in fact he hasnt done a single thing I have asked him to in the last 6 days EXCEPT get his airline ticket and even that he didnt call the airline to see if he could get a discount. I want to ring his neck. He says he has been busy but cant tell me what the fuck he has done. Well what do I do sit on my ass all day. I have been working my ass off getting this arranged taking care of stuff that needs to be done and also holding down my fulltime job. I dont see how hard it is to look shit up online and not have the time. I put 100 miles on my car every couple days not counting work with all the errands I run. A part of me wants to leave it all up to him but that will screw me over too and I know yelling doesnt help ergh I wish he would just help me out. I hate being mad at him but goodness quit being such a lazy bum and do something dammit. We have about 16 days until we leave give or take a few days and he is driving me nuts. this shit cant wait until he gets home

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Ok didnt update all weekend cos I was hella busy.
Hubby still isnt home. Still dont know when but we will see.
Friday was a bad day for me. I was terribly depressed and missed Hubs severly and no one I knew was available to go out it just sucked. But Sat I woke up not feeling much better and called a girlfriend to see how she was doing (her lil girl was born Thursday). She was so happy to hear from me it was scary so I took her lunch and hung out and helped out and did her grocery shopping. Yesterday I took them to the baby's first doctors appointment (yes on a sunday) and all is well. Then we did a little shopping since we were out and she needed some things. Went back to her place ate lunch and all 3 of us passed out cold for a couple hours. Before I left I made sure she ate and then I was off. Today I sooooo did not wantto get up for work I felt like crap and now I do not feel much better. But I came to work to make sure I made it to my doc's appt today (need new headache meds) and then I will run by my friends and take her some milk (as a non-milk drinker I didnt buy enough). Then I will probably head home to veg and relax and nurse this headache.

Saturday, September 25, 2004

my head hurts

these migraines suck butt. No word yet as to where we are off to if we are going anywhere I just want to go home. well in 2 hours I will go home and relax. and pack some more ugh.

I am sooooo stressed. My doctor tells me stress causes my migraines (well duh shit genius I knew that) and that I should learn to react better to stress so I am not so stressed. so please tell me how do you not stress when your life is like mine is right now.
Last Wed hurricane is heading towards my husband and he goes into lockdown at a shelter. Thursday night I hear from him, they didnt graduate in time now they dont know what they will do or where they will go. Weekend still no clue because there is no command at the base to take care of it. I spend the weekend moving things into storage because I am going to have to move out of my place soon. When I move I will move into 1 of 3 different places depending on order and where DH is at the time (here or FL). The only moving prospect that is appealling is the third option which is PCS with hubby. Mon still no info. Tues we learn they will grad on Wed and they will have him out ASAP. well it is now friday afternoon still no orders, still no clue, I have to get moving but I dont know where I should go or if I should wait so i am waiting as long as I can. ugh I am miserable and my headaches are so bad they wake me up at night. I want to take time off work but I know it wont help and I dont have much left for the year, if he is stationed here I may burn time I want to use later this year. if he is gone oh i dont know this sucks
so how do you not stress in this situation? :evil:
oh yeah and chances are when he does have orders there will be less than 30days to report but we have NO CLUE where that will be so we dont have time to find housing or anything

Friday, September 24, 2004

I promised I would do better on this blog but I couldnt get to the computer for a couple days. The bitchiness passed to be followed quickly by the sharp and swift blow of a migraine, I had no warning on this one. I went to bed in the early evening yesterday and today more meds and best rest no coffee with the girls tonight :)

As to the hubster it is any day now. He isnt home yet maybe tomorrow. no orders yet but they want him out of there and on his leave getting ready to PCS so things may work out great and I may only have 3 moves in 6 months not 4. It is great. :) now why hasnt that boy called me.

A good friend of mine had her baby today I am sure she is beaustiful. Amanda had the easiest pregnancy I have ever seen I cant wait to go visit her and the baby.

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

I am all bitchy and tired and cranky today. I just feel like crap. I wanted to work on my message board but I think I will just go to bed and relax. I hate feeling like this.

News on the Navy front:
We still have no freakin clue what is up. classes are supposed to resume this week. My poor husband is going nuts since there are soo many people everywhere. The other bases guys are driving him nuts yelling hoo-rah at the squirrels and stuff. But it is all good. He could literally call me tomorrow and say he will be home in a few hours. The nerves and stress of this is killing me. I hated hearing how upset and angry he was and not being able to be there for him. Thankfully I was able to get past my bad mood so I at least didnt bitch at him about his bitching. I wish I could get a hug so bad but soon enough. I love him so much I cant explain it and I miss him. Soon he will be home though :)

ok off to bed and relax and watch an old movie, I think tonights choice will be an Officer and a Gentleman

Monday, September 20, 2004

Last Week Hurricane Ivan hit Gulf Shores, AL. That was close enough that my husband in Pensacola also went through the eye of the storm. Thankfully I was not actually all that worried for once I actually had faith that the Navy new what they were doing and they were not going to get him killed. The base was badly damaged and now 3 days after he was first able to contact me I still cannot describe to him what is going on outside the fence. I fely bad because he was turning to me for news and I could not but into words that the areas we had so much fun in while I was visiting recently were gone, not just damaged but gone. Today he managed to get off base to go down to a walmart and buy some supplies and now he understands at least and now he cammot describe it to me. I worry about the Air Museum at NAS pensacola I love aeronautics and I just fear that so much of it is damaged I wish I could go see it for myself. I cannot handle looking at the pictures online anymore it is just heart breaking and to know all those buildings in the Seville quarter, Fort Pickens and on the banks of NAS are gone or severely damaged is just sad to me. I wonder how Lulu's is and Mr Manatee's they are both wonderful restraunts. Well I just looked and although Lulu's has major damage it is all repairable damage :) yay for that.

Now we are just waiting to see when the hubster will be getting orders and out of FL (unless his orders are there). Thankfully they finished training before the hurricane hit so he is ready to go e just needs some papers, a ticket and a kick out the door.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Navy Life to date

ok my Navy life started approx 6 months ago and my married life started a week before that. My husband has been gone ever since and I have spent a total of almost 3 weeks with him since the day we were married. As of today he has finished his training and there is a cat 5 hurricane coming down on them. One would hope that the Navy in their wisdom would have given him his orders and sent him home on leave and to get ready for the move but no instead my husband is on lockdown on the only base that appears to not be evacuating and i am worried. Ugh I just want him home and to know where we are headed next. My summer in paradise is about to end but it was fun :)